Tuesday thoughts

It’s a sunny Tuesday afternoon and I am in week 9 of my summer off. The time has come for me to start dipping my feet back into the job market and I am ready to be humbled.

I have at least until April to find my dream job and I am looking forward to the opportunities that will present themselves to me.

It took guts to quit what was a comfortable enough position in the midst of a pandemic and I’m prepared for the challenge I’ve created for myself. As I wrote in my previous post, I have never felt so self assured and confident as I am now – I prepared well for this and have achieved a sense of understanding of what I want moving forward that only some time off could have achieved.

I have become a little lazy in terms of what I am doing with my days though, if I’m not careful I’ll end up sleeping in and watching re runs instead of enjoying the sunshine and freedom. I don’t want to get complacent. I have been talking about joining a dance school for some time now, I really should get on top of that!

There has been a weird side of having all this time to think and be in my own thoughts and it’s that I have started to allow myself to think and cry about Mum again. I had not shead a tear for quite some time, for no other reason than the fact that I was suppressing it so I could get on with my life. It feels healthy and a lot less exhausting when I reminisce now, but it is still very hard.

The benefits of this time off have been priceless and I hope the journey ahead yields fruit and I achieve what I set out to, I feel I deserve it.

There are some that don’t understand my decisions and that’s OK. There are some that say I was foolish to take time off but I know I’m not. I know this will make me a far better professional and a far better person in the long run.

As I approach my 35th birthday I have finally gotten to a place where I can truly own my decisions and actions and be accountable to them. It is really freeing.

Well, that’s about it for my Tuesday thoughts. Now, I’m off to get my feet wet.