dailybizness86

All good things come to an end.

It has been a year and a half since starting “Daily Bizness – Starting Over” and the purpose of this blog was to provide me with a platform where I could open up, unpack and process the deep anguish I felt for a long time. My sisters were really worried about me when my MumContinue reading “All good things come to an end.”

Calculated risks

Waking up when my body decides to, sipping coffee in the mid morning and having chats with my housemates, chilling in the sun when it’s out or on the couch when it rains, watching movies in the middle of the day, catching up with friends on weeknights and not worrying about going to work theContinue reading “Calculated risks”

Tuesday thoughts

It’s a sunny Tuesday afternoon and I am in week 9 of my summer off. The time has come for me to start dipping my feet back into the job market and I am ready to be humbled. I have at least until April to find my dream job and I am looking forward toContinue reading “Tuesday thoughts”

A great start to 2021

I was asked a couple of days ago if I still wanted to get married and for the first time in my life the answer wasn’t an immediate yes. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t a no either, I think I have just reached a point in my life where it’s no longer a goalContinue reading “A great start to 2021”

When the silence is the loudest thing in the room

It has been 16 months since my Mother died and slowly but surely my family and I have been healing. Seemingly at the same pace. In the last year we experienced all of our first’s without Mum. We spoke about her liberally and she came up in all of the prayers before meals but then,Continue reading “When the silence is the loudest thing in the room”

Caution to the wind

It’s been a while and a lot has happened since my last post. I have thrown caution to the wind recently and it feels amazing. I haven’t really ever felt this free before but I am apprehensive of what the next year looks like. Craig and I split in October which was more or lessContinue reading “Caution to the wind”

Walking bare foot into a Rose bush.

I have been able to establish a sense of calm that I have never been able to achieve in my life before. It comes from being able to sit here a year after Mum’s death and a year and a half after I split from Jake who I spent nine years of my life withContinue reading “Walking bare foot into a Rose bush.”

Foggy mind

Recently I feel my brain is full of fog. I have been experiencing a lot of weird and bad dreams that don’t quite make it to nightmare status but keep me up all the same. I feel like I have it together but then it seems perhaps I am not quite acknowledging how I amContinue reading “Foggy mind”

I’ve got this.

It’s been a trial of a month for me at work this month but my personal life is going pretty well. The balance has kept my head and heart above water and in this particular moment I am feeling very empowered. I let some changes at work and a less than good result get theContinue reading “I’ve got this.”

Mud is good for your skin

I was supposed to be in Italy right now but the Corona virus made that impossible. I look longingly at pictures of the places I planned to visit and watch stories put up by my friends in Italy (who are now seemingly out of lockdown) and ache at not being able to be part ofContinue reading “Mud is good for your skin”

Cautious but hopeful

It’s been a weird year so far and despite everything that has happened in our world in 2020, for me it has turned out kind of well… It started with a promotion. I had experienced some serious turmoil in my personal life for a solid portion of last year and the begining of this yearContinue reading “Cautious but hopeful”

Shades of grey

I have remained a fly on the wall when it comes to the current protests and debates happening. Not because I don’t have strong feelings about racism, I certainly do but I have come to realise that expressing my views end up in arguments with people who are on the same side. I have beenContinue reading “Shades of grey”