Looming Uncertainty

Uncertainty in my life is looming again.

The next change over of housemates is underway and it’s an odd transition to say the least. We have three newbies and of the 7 old housemates 6 will be likely be gone by the end of the month.

To top it off, the lease holder is leaving in May, which leaves Kiff (my cat) and I in a position of potentially needing to find another place to live in a few months. If it was just me I would not be overly worried, it will be easy enough to find a place in my budget especially coming up to the cooler months but Kiff makes it a little less easy.

Part of me wants to start looking else where now and in turn I’ll avoid the whole awkward switch over of the housemates but Kiff loves it in our house so much so I am reluctant to move until I absolutely have to…

I seem to be living in perpetual uncertainty since I came back from my trip in April last year which is a major contrast of the mundane day in day out life I lived before going away. Part of me misses having stability but I was incredibly unsatisfied back then, I can’t say that I am necessarily unsatisfied now days, just a little vulnerable.

On top of the uncertainty I am about to experience a sense of loss, again. I will miss some key people who are leaving my house. I have been through this before and the first time stung a lot. This time round I feel more prepared but it will still be tough.

I feel like I am on some sort of weird working holiday in my own country. I’m itching a little to leave again, it is always a thought at the back of my mind but feel like I have such a good thing going right now with the job, cat, family etc.

I don’t have a solid group of friends in Sydney anymore so I feel a bit nomad in that sense. Many of the people I care about are dispersed around the world which makes it even more tempting to travel again or even to start again somewhere else like Queensland… I wont be missing much in terms of my social life, I always make new friends relatively quickly.

I can more or less see where the wind takes me at this point. I need a plan when it comes to Kiff though, he’s my only real hurdle.

We will see how things pan out…