Valentine’s Day

For all the Valentine’s days I have experienced, this one, despite being single, is certainly not amongst the worst.

I was in a relationship for a very long time with someone who just was not in tune with what his role was as a boyfriend and partner and I struggled silently for such a long time being the one to make romantic gestures and accept the fact that he just wasn’t the type of person that could fathom the concept of making me feel special.

This Valentine’s Day I got to experience the day without that sense of rejection or feeling of responsibility to make this day something special. Today I felt free.

I still got a rose from a co worker and got an opportunity to feel special by another co worker who bought me cocktails all night. To be honest it was more than I really ever got from Jake which is super sad but it made me realise how lucky I am to have escaped such a mundane relationship that almost turned into a marriage. I am really so lucky.

I am emotionally unavailable right now. I really cannot be bothered with dating at the moment and part of that is most likely because I’m am more than satisfied with my busy life as it is. Starting or trying to start a new relationship really isn’t in my realm of interest right now but I know once someone who I connect with comes along it will be all guns blazing, it always is.

For now I’m grateful for a fun and free Valentine’s day this year. Something I have not experienced for a whole decade.

I’m curious to see where I’m at for the next one. Til then.