The blessings of 2019

I have spent most of my writing so far spilling raw emotion and getting the heart ache I have been feeling on paper, this post however will be dedicated to what good came out of this year.

In January I achieved a dream I created for myself in 2017 of living on an Island in Thailand, waking up in a bungalow that I made my own with my own furnishings and having my feet in sand every single day.

To date this is the biggest life achievement outside of my career and nothing on earth can take away the joy it gave me when I achieved it.

I got to celebrate my birthday in my favourite place in the world, Railay with amazing people. Even though on that day I got stung by a hornet wasp, it was to date my favourite birthday.

I also got to do something I always wished I could do and it was to watch a litter of kittens grow up and be part of helping raise them in Railay.

In late March and April I travelled for the most part alone down the east coast of Australia and met a lot of really nice people who helped me feel good about myself. I had a lot of fun with them.

I visited Cairns, Mission beach, Townsville, Harvey Bay, Airlie Beach, Brisbane and Byron and conquered my ultimate fear of being alone.

The trip is something I will remember for the rest of my life and I hope one day I can do it again without the heavy heart.

When I finally did get back to Sydney I got a job at a local Telco company and within six months got promoted to the Call Centre Manager position. I have a lot of people to thank for the opportunity and I am so glad to have met the people I work with.

I dedicated a whole post the other day to my new home because that is one of the best things to have come out of this year. Living in a home like this is exactly what I needed to get back on my feet.

Oh and I got to be reunited with my incredibly unfriendly but lovable cat Kiff who the housemates adore.

I have established a stronger than ever bond with my family and my cousin Katrina since mum left us. And despite how it came about, it was the greatest gift I received this year.

I want to say “this year wasn’t so bad after all” but to be completely fair it was pretty bad. But even in the worst year of my life, I have been so blessed to have kept my head above water to see the beauty that this year produced.

Happy New Year all.